I Could Not Believe It: The 1979 Teenage Diaries of Sean DeLear

ISBN: 1635901839

Author: DeLear, Sean

Condition: New

A remarkable time capsule of Simi Valley, 1979, written before the author would become one of LAs most influential artists of subsequent decades.When Sean DeLear died prematurely in Vienna in 2017, his friends discovered-among other treasures-an extensive diary kept at the age of fourteen. Still living with his Christian parents in the notoriously racist Los Angeles suburb of Simi Valley, Sean wrote almost every day about crushes and hustling, waterbeds, blackmail, Donna Summer, gloryholes, racism, and shoplifting gay porn.DeLear would go on to become the frontman for the Los Angeles punk/powerpop band Glue. He was a punk musician, visual artist, intercontinental scenester, video vixen, party host, marijuana farmer, and sometime-collaborator of artists such as Kembra Pfahler and Vaginal Davis.DeLears forgotten diaries capture a moment in Los Angeles underground and queer history when, as his friend the writer Cesar Padilla notes, It wasnt cool at all to be trans, gay, queer or whatever. Those words werent even in the vocabulary. I Could Not Believe It, Padilla continues, is a raw fearless innocent gay Black kids journey coming out into life at an incredible pre-AIDS period. Its not cognizant of being literature. Its as nave and forthcoming as it gets. It wasnt written with the desire to be published so Sean didnt hold back. Seans goal was to be true to himself.