Surviving the White Gaze: A Memoir

ISBN: 1982116250

Author: Carroll, Rebecca

Condition: New

An Esquire Best Book of 2021A stirring and powerful memoir from black cultural critic Rebecca Carroll recounting her painful struggle to overcome a completely white childhood in order to forge her identity as a black woman in America.Rebecca Carroll grew up the only black person in her rural New Hampshire town. Adopted at birth by artistic parents who believed in peace, love, and zero population growth, her early childhood was loving and idyllic-and yet she couldnt articulate the deep sense of isolation she increasingly felt as she grew older.Everything changed when she met her birth mother, a young white woman, who consistently undermined Carrolls sense of her blackness and self-esteem. Carrolls childhood became harrowing, and her memoir explores the tension between the aching desire for her birth mothers acceptance, the loyalty she feels toward her adoptive parents, and the search for her racial identity. As an adult, Carroll forged a path from city to city, struggling along the way with difficult boyfriends, depression, eating disorders, and excessive drinking. Ultimately, through the support of her chosen black family, she was able to heal.Intimate and illuminating, Surviving the White Gaze is a timely examination of racism and racial identity in America today, and an extraordinarily moving portrait of resilience.